...incidentals....

"sexy"

2004-12-10T18:23:00.000+08:00

it's been soooo long since i was last complimented this way. and though i know that you meant this as a joke, i just can't help but feel flattered. yeah, i know you must have said this a thousand times but hell, it really does make people feel good about themselves. nyehehe

he asked..'ano ba susuotin mo bukas?..sabihin mo na..para hinde ako masorpresa..baka ma-inlab ako sa'yo nyan'

soooo lame and yet you've managed to make me momentarily speechless. (momentarily daw...it seemed almost a lifetime! pero buti na lng sa phone lng un, di masyadong obvious)

what is wrong with me?! why can't i handle things like this?! must have been the effect of not being in a relationship for quite sometime (quite sometime daw!). sobrang tigang ko at sobrang tagal na alang ngappreciate kaya un...*sigh*

ah ewan! just have to get used to this...

2004-11-30T11:07:00.000+08:00

"there is always that one person that will always have your heart...."

nakakaasar..

2004-11-17T11:19:00.000+08:00

ang mga taong walang isang salita. oo daw pero the very last minute e mgbaback-out..

tarot card

2004-10-21T10:44:00.000+08:00

Spiritual enlightenment, inner illumination, hidden power. Link between seen and unseen. Balance of positive and negative forces. Receptivity. Unseen guidance. A young woman sits on a throne holding a scroll labeled "Tora" meaning "law." On her breast is the sign of the meeting of heaven and earth, the Maltese cross. Her crown is the full orb supported by horns, the crown ofthe Mother Goddess Isis, who rules all things changeable, shown by the moon at her feet. Her power, upon which her throne rests, derives from the creative principle of duality, shown by the two pillars of light and darkness. To those who know and love her she dispenses the sweet fruit of the world itself, symbolized by the pomegranites.

Which tarot card are you?

WITTLE WABBITS..

2004-10-07T09:09:00.000+08:00

A little girl walks into a pet shop and asks in the sweetest little lisp, "Excuthe me, mithter, do you keep wittle wabbits?"

And the shopkeeper gets down on his knees, so that he's on her level, and asks, "Do you want a wittle white wabby or a soft and fuwwy black wabby or maybe one like that cute wittle brown wabby over there?"

She in turn puts her hands on her knees, leans forward and says in a quiet voice, "I don't fink my pyfon weally gives a phuck!"

survey eklat

2004-09-14T18:53:00.000+08:00

1.WHAT IS THE MEANING OF YOUR NAME?
Celestial Hunter daw
2. WHAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR NAME?
umm...un daw kasi ung sikat nung time na un...so ayun...dami ko tuloy kapangalan :(
3.WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
sing my heart out!! sobrang effective :D
4.WHAT MAKES YOU NERVOUS?
being infront of a crowd..and driving?
5.WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
soap operas...basta anything mushy kahit sobrang jologs hehehe
6.WHAT'S THE ONE THING THAT IS LACKING IN YOUR LIFE?
Contentment
7.WHAT'S YOUR MIDNIGHT SNACK?
nothing
8.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF HOMOSEXUAL MARRIAGES?
ok lng..kanya-kanya nmn yan e
9.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF ABORTION?
it'll never be an option for me
10.WHAT'S ONE THING YOU LOVE ABOUT YOUR COUNTRY?
beaches and sunsets
11.DESCRIBE YOUR MOM
moody like me :)
12.NUMBER OF OVERNIGHTS YOU'VE GONE TO?
10?..
13.MOST MEANINGFUL THING SAID TO YOU?
you're a good person :)
14.LONGEST CAR/BUS RIDE YOU'VE TAKEN?
las piñas to sta.cruz,zambales
15.BIBLE QUOTE YOU'LL NEVER FORGET?
'resist the devil, and he will flee from you' (naks, naalala ko parin Ü)
16.BEST GIFT YOU HAVE EVER RECEIVED?
my life..
17.SHOW THAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
FRIENDS and lots of pinoy shows
18.NICEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE?
loved with all my heart...
19.LOOK AROUND. WHAT CAUGHT YOUR EYE?
papemelroti calendar
20.YOUR WISH WHEN YOU LAST BLEW A BIRTHDAY CANDLE?
happiness ata
21.CLOSE YOUR EYES FOR A FEW SECONDS. WHAT DID YOU SEE?
nothing
22.DO YOU LIKE BUYING BRANDED CLOTHES?
Not really...
23.DO YOU KNOW YOUR BESTFRIEND'S FRIENDSTER PASSWORD?
nope...email lng :D
24.DO YOU FOLLOW FASHION TRENDS?
nope..
25.HAVE YOU EVER RUN AWAY?
nope..but thought about it a couple of times
26.HAVE YOU EVER LITERALLY BEEN A SHOULDER TO CRY ON?
yup
27.HAVE YOU EVER INTENTIONALLY IGNORED SOMEONE?
sobrang guilty! wehehe
28.HAVE YOU EVER WENT ON A ROMANTIC DATE?
yupz
29.HAVE YOU EVER RECEIVED A LOVE LETTER?
yupz
30.WHEN WAS THE FIRST TIME?
1st year hs
31.HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN A LOVE LETTER?
yupz
32.WHEN WAS THE FIRST TIME?
1st year hs (landi ko ba? :D)
33.DO YOU THINK YOU'LL EVER GET CANCER?
wag nmn sana...don't want to think about it
34.IF YOU DO GET CANCER AND HAVE ABOUT A MONTH TO LIVE, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
do everything in my checklist :)
35.IF YOU COULD SPEND A WEEK ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
hmmmmmmmmmm..........kahit san
36.IF YOU WROTE A BOOK, WHAT WOULD IT BE ABOUT?
a girl searching for love/happiness..
37.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PAST?
??...haunting?
38.WHERE DO YOU USUALLY GO SHOPPING?
mall
39.HOW DID YOU SPEND YESTERDAY?
played sims, watched tv, read 'i know this much is true'
40.HOW MANY OF YOUR CLOSE RELATIVES ARE LIVING ABROAD?
ewan..
41.WHERE?
kung san-san, indonesia, bahrain, canada
42.DID YOU HAVE SCHOOL TODAY?
am working na po
43.HOW WAS IT?
...
44.Music of the Moment:
till i hear it from you -gin blossoms
45.Currently feeling?
BORED!

instant messengers

2004-09-11T19:18:00.000+08:00

found these...

*sigh*

2004-09-10T18:23:00.000+08:00

chances were
puzzle pieces
i cut out carefully and gave to you
hoping they'd fit in your frame

plans were
endless blueprints
i drafted dreamily, with ink of hope
without consulting you at all

wishes were
imaginary horses
i sent galloping
to the first star of night
thinking a child's ritual could win me a man

i was
too in love
to look for the truth in your eyes and see
that the one you wanted to belong to wasn't me

~ANONYMOUS

10 things

2004-09-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

1. Don't ask her to be feminine.
2. Don't let her drink over three glasses. She'll beat someone.
3. At a cafe, drink coffee instead of coke or juice.
4. If she hits you, act like it hurts. If it hurts, act like it doesn't.
5. On your 100th day together give her a rose during her class. She'll like it lot.
6. Make sure you learn fencing and squash.
7. Also be prepared to go to prison sometimes.
8. If she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly. You'll feel better.
9. If her feet hurts, exchange shoes with her.
10. She likes to write, encourage her.

fate is building a bridge of chance for someone you love

MY SASSY GIRL
film by kwak jae-yong

am..

2004-09-03T15:57:00.000+08:00

watching 'my sassy girl' for the second time :) funny nya!! parang ngaun ko pa nga lng napanod coz i was drunk and sleepy the last time hehehe

yipee!!!

2004-09-01T17:54:00.000+08:00

september na! 114 days to go til CHRISTMAS!!! :)

sus...!

2004-08-26T16:52:00.000+08:00

kaka-receive ko lng ng email galing sa TM ko...pde na daw umuwi ahead of our work sked. ummmm...it's 4:50pm and ang labas ko ay 5:00pm. ano ba yan...balewala din. :(

The Last Day

2004-08-24T16:02:00.000+08:00

Lyrics by: Brenda Russell/John Ewbank
From the CD "Avenues of Love" Artist: Marilyn Scott

If today were the last of all days
Would it change how you feel, who you are
Would you rise for a moment above all your fears
Become one with the moon and the stars

Would you like what you see looking down
Did you give everything that you could
Have you done everything that you wanted to do
Is there still so much more that would?

Follow your dream to the end of the rainbow
Way beyond one pot of gold
Open your eyes to the colors around you
And find the true beauty life holds

Would you live for the moment like when you were young
Time didn't travel so fast
Be free in the present
Enjoying the now
Not tied to a future or past.

You would probably say all you wanted to say
But doesn't is strike you as strange
That we'd only begin to start living our lives
If today were the last of all days

**
ewan ko ba...nasa-sad ako sa song na 'to coz i know i haven't really lived my life. takot kasi ako sa change...kuntento sa kung ano ang anjan...basta alang problema, kahit hindi ako masaya, ok na sakin. siguro dahil takot ako sa disappointments...sa failures...pero lahat nmn diba nakaka-experience nun?
sana i could fall in love without worrying if our relationship would last forever. forget the past and overcome the fear of getting hurt. sana i could say and do everything i feel without worrying if others will approve of it...buhay ko nmn 'to ah...hindi sa kanila! and sana, i could finally start following my dreams so that for once man lng maging happy ako noh! wala...hangang salita lng nmn ako e... *sigh*

check list

2004-08-19T17:26:00.000+08:00

minsan ngbasa ako ng chicken soup for the soul, tas i came across an article written by john goddard. there he listed 127 things he wanted to achieve during his lifetime...tas sobrang na-amaze talga ako dahil nacomplete na nya ung 109 dun! (o dba, kakaiba talga?) syempre nainggit ang lola nyo kaya gumawa din ako nang sarili ko list. eto po sya...

- learn to play guitar
- learn to swim (yup, tanda ko na pero di parin ako runong lumangoy huhuhu)
- learn to drive (actually, marunong na ko...may license na nga ako e...takot lng talga...lalo na pg-'hanging')
- learn to cartwheel (ummm...ewan ko kung pde pa 'to kasi pataba na ko ng pataba...baka di ko na mabuhat sarili ko nyan)
- learn to write with both hands
- be a band vocalist (uy, kung may banda kau...pgbgyan nyo na ko...one time lng)
- own a flower farm
- be a preschool teacher
- read an entire dictionary (abridged lng syempre)
- read all harry potter books (two to go...jk publish ka na ulit!)
- read all lord of the rings books (hay...isa pa lng nababasa ko...katamad kaya sobra!!!)
- mapanood lahat ng AFI's top 100 greatest movies (hay...wish ko lng talga!)
- be a linguist (siguro kahit french, spanish, niponggo, mandarin/fukien lng muna)
- mai-feature ang ipapadala kong imbentong kwento sa MMK (ewan ko ba kung pano nasama 'to..tinotopak siguro ako nung sinulat ko 'to.)
- maging CFA (un ay kung mkpg-review ako ng maayos at magkaron ako ng sangkatutak na pera na pambayad sa exam. four levels un...pahirapan talga!)
- take up law (ewan...natuwa kasi ako sa law subjects ko dati e...)
- memorize all the constellations (wla akong idea kung gano karami sila...ala lng...ngmamamagaling lng kaya ko naisulat eto nun)
- learn to ride a horse
- learn to bake cakes (ung edible syempre)
- learn figure and ice skating (soon!)
- read all chicken soup books

ayan...kung tutuusin, ala itong binatbat sa list ni goddard na sobrang dami at kay hirap-hirap pa! ewan ko ba kung kelan ko 'to masisimulan...at kung ano ba ang uunahin ko sa kanila.

eto pa la ung list ni goddard:
"My Life List", John Goddard

being complete. . .

2004-08-18T17:37:00.000+08:00

COMPLETE

Just because no one has been fortunate enough
   to realize what a gold mine you are,
   doesn't mean you shine any less.

Just because no one has been smart enough
   to figure out that you can't be topped,
   doesn't stop you from being the best.

Just because no one has come along
   to share your life,
   doesn't mean that day isn't coming.

Just because no one has made this race worthwhile,
   doesn't give you permission to stop running.

Just because no one has realized how much
   of a man/woman you are,
   doesn't mean they can effect your masculinity/ femininity.

Just because no one has come
   to take the loneliness away,
   doesn't mean you have to settle for a lower quality.

Just because no one has shown up
   who can love you on your level,
   doesn't mean you have to sink to theirs.

Just because you deserve
   the very best there is,
   doesn't mean that life is always fair.

Just because God
   is still preparing your king/queen,
   doesn't mean that you're not already a queen/king.

Just because your situation
   doesn't seem to be progressing right now,
   doesn't mean you need to change a thing.

   Keep shining,
   Keep running,
   Keep hoping,
   Keep praying,

Keep being exactly what you already are..... COMPLETE

~anonymous

Ha!

2004-08-14T21:04:00.000+08:00

finally, na ayos ko na rin 'tong background ko!!! am so GOOD! (conceited noh? hehehe) sobrang proud lng talga ako kasi sobrang ala kaya akong alam sa html/css...kung anuman yan! tas ang galing-galing...transparent na sya! hehehe actually, marami pa dapat akong aayusin e...di pa masyadong nababasa ung ibang posts. oh well, chca na un...importante e napa-transparent ko na 'to! ilang araw ko din yan pinagchachagaan noh! sobrang trial and error! (pssst...mel, sowi kung naabutan mo blog ko na di matino...ayan maayos na sya ulit! hehehe)

hmmmm....bukod sa pg ayos ng blog ko e may iba nmn din akong ginawa. ng-work din nmn ako kahit papano noh! tinapos ko lng shift ko tas blog na ulit. hehehe pinipigilan ko na nga sarili ko e. ewan ko ba...di ako mapakali kasi parati na lng akong may naiisip na idea para sa blog ko. hehehe mas enjoy pa nga akong mag-ayos ng layout kasi magpost ng entry...obvious nmn diba? halos alang laman eto...puro design lng. hay....dapat bawasan ko na mg-blog. addict na ang lola mo! pwamis this week bawasan ko na...hiya na ko sa boss ko...puro na lng ako blog. hehehe

ay...nga pala. pumunta pala din kami world trade center kanina...may bookfair kasi e. di ko nga nalibot lahat e. derecho na lng agad ako sa powerbooks at national. ayun...bumili ako ng...(ano ba un?....) 'the testament' by john grisham at 'i know this much is true' by wally lamb. may 3 pa ngang nakapila sa bhay e...di ko pa mabasa-basa kasi...ummm...puyat ata ako sa kaka-blog hehehe.

so un...sobrang ala na ko maisip pang isulat kasi naubos powers ng lola mo sa background na 'to. hay...hangang sa huli e ung background ko parin ung topic. hehehe natutuwa lng talga ako...kaw ba hindi?

endLESS poems

2004-08-10T19:52:00.000+08:00

as i sit by the window i wonder why
why all these tears flow as i write
all the while i thought that i'm fine
and that i've accepted you're no longer mine

i tried to pretend that i'm alright
'tried to convince others with all my lies
what they don't know beneath those smiles
is a girl who cries for you each night

i could try and find some other guy
someone who'll love me more than life
but there is more than what meets the eye
and emptiness is all i find inside. . . . . .

©©©

i tried controlling my feelings for you
tried to calm down for it's just YOU
but what can i say what can i do
i just can't stop from falling for you
tis not the first time i've felt something like this
not my first time i had someone to miss
the only difference is now i'm amiss...

©©©

if he knew what i feel inside
would he stop for just awhile
if he knew 'bout the nights i've cried
would he be here by my side
if i told him i love him
would things be the same
will he take things seriously
or will he just play a game
but i guess i'll never know
for he will never know...

©©©

maybe i'm just a fool
maybe it was a lie
maybe someday i'll get over you
maybe someday i'll try
how can i love someone like you
how can i...when you love her true
how do i stop myself from being blue
won't you please help and give me a clue...

©©©

i've said this line to myself before
and i'll say it again to myself once more
hoping others would be deceived
hoping it would make me believe...
i am moving on, letting go
and before you know it,
i'm already over you
for i...'i never loved you!'...

©©©

inside is where the pain is kept
the heartaches and tears wept,
the memories of nights unslept,
lines from his letters i longed to forget

i was still in HS when we first met
was then playing hard-to-get. . . . . .

©©©

STUPID, that's how i describe what i feel<
pretending that your love for me is still here
i've tried forgetting you but still
that wounds you've left me won't heal

TIME, for them is all i need
eventually it'll stop my heart that bleeds
it's been 5 years and i'm counting still
when shall i move on for real?. . . . . .

***wrote most of these poems one sleepness night....na nagda-daydream ako tungkol sa kanya. bakit endless poems? kasi lahat sila hindi ko mabigyan ng matinong ending...puro putol...puro simula lang. ewan ko ba kung bakit...siguro dahil di parin putol ung kwento...o baka dahil hindi lng ako maka-moveon hangang ngaun...ndi nmn cguro, wala pa lng talgang 'closure' kasi hangang ngaun ang dami ko parin tanong..

suntok sa buwan...

2004-08-05T19:01:00.000+08:00

kanina, tinopak ako at ni-nominate ko sarili ko sa philippineblogawards. kapal ko noh? to think 2 mos pa lang akong ngbo-blog, tas di pa matino layout nitong blog ko...at higit sa lahat, ala nmn kwenta 'tong mga pingsusulat ko! as if nmn parati akong nga-update dito noh! *sigh* but still...i'm keeping my fingers crossed hehehe

to YOU

2004-07-31T19:58:00.000+08:00

hmm....bkt ko nga ba ginagawa 'to? maybe i'm too proud to admit na hangang ngaun apektado parin ako sau. i'm sick and tired of explaining every single thing i do/say. why do i have to do that? tayo ba? hindi nmn e.

grineet nmn kita e...hindi nga lng ako ung unang ng-greet sau but still ---. i fell asleep last night coz the other night i stayed up late wrapping your gift...alam mo ba un?!!!! but i don't want to explain myself...why should i? i'd only look stupid...and leave myself vulnerable.

and i'm so sorry if i can't say everything i feel...i can't just tell everything that's been happening to me. i don't want to invest so much emotions coz lalo lng akong mahihirapan pg ngkataon. lam mo nmn na hindi talga ako mkwento na tao e....na as much as possible i want to keep everything to myself. i know you only want to help...na concerned ka sakin....kaya lng ako ung tipong di sanay sa ganyan e. so kung wala ka din nmn balak...don't sound too sweet na lng...don't act super concerned....coz lalo lng akong mahuhulog nyan. if only she were not around....if only you'd tell me that you'd leave her....then i won't have to hold anything back. pero hinde e....*sigh*

i am really sorry. sorry hindi kita na-greet kagabi. sorry hindi ako mkpg-open up sau. sorry 'di na tau tulad ng dati. sorry kasi napapagod na ko....

2004-07-29T12:48:00.000+08:00

I'd rather be loved, needed
Depended on to give the love I can't give
When you're gone, when you're gone
I just don't want to be lonely

pssssssst......

2004-07-20T18:46:00.000+08:00

one month na 'tong blog ko!!!!

flashbacks...

2004-07-14T20:18:00.000+08:00

last night...bumalik sila. yup..ang past ko. (...habulin ba daw ako?)

MUSIC ONE

i was with a friend, looking for something to give to our friend's bday today when i saw her--my bestfriend (nung elem). tinawag nya ko, syempre speechless ako....shocked! sabi nya...hindi mo na ko kilala noh? (---nyak...shocked lng po!) grabe, excited and at the same time di ko lam gagawin...di ko lam sasabihin. tipong 'hello, my friend. we meet again. it's been awhile, where should we begin?.' for almost 8 yrs di tau ngusap...talagang 'where should i begin.' ang dami kong gustong ikwento..diba tuwing my problem ako dati takbo ako sau? well, not literally...napapasulat lng naman ako sau. yupz, snail mail pa nun...di pa uso sakin internet...ala pa nga atang comp sa bahay nun e. syempre gusto ko din pkwento sau...mga ngyari sau...my boylet ka na ba? (....wat? ikakasal ka na?!! hehe imbento lang Ü) hay...kung di lng kami ngmamadali nun e inaya kitang kain o kahit tambay lng...like 'good old days'...nung bestfriend mo pa ko. well, di naman tau nagaway para bumaba ang level ko from bestfriend to friend lang...pero syempre, daming ng ngyari..dami ko ng di alam..wala ako nung problemado ka....my bago ka na tuloy bestfriend huhuhu! bkt ba ko ngdra-drama dito? ewan...ganto talga ngyayari sakin pg narerealize ko ung mga bagay na pinapalampas ko o hinayaan kong mawala. kung di kaya ako lumipat ng school e bestfriends parin kaya tau? ewan...hindi siguro...taray ko na daw e :)

POWER BOOKS live 1

uy! musta na?! *grins*
uy! hello! eto ok lng...ikaw?
grabe, sobrang payat mo! eto...taba sobra!

di ko na maalala ung iba e...basta parang ganyan ung usapan natin kagabi. wow ha...kanina ung bestfriend ko nung elem tas ngaun e ung kaagaw naman sa bestfriend ko nung college. uy, friends din po kami...sadyang selosa lang talga ang lola mo kaya ganun. napansin kaya nya? un kaya ung reason kung bakit umalis sya samin? sori kung sobra kitang natarayan. sori talga... ano kayang ngyari kung di ako ngselos? baka nging close friends din tau (asa ka pa! talino nyan noh! di kayo parehas ng wavelength...mapapatanga ka na lng tuwing maguusap kau!) ala lng...ano ba yan...hinahabol nyo talga ako! siguro dahil di pa ko ngtatanda...selosa pa rin ba ko?

POWER BOOKS live 2

'@#$%%&'
(may tumawag ba sakin?) looks around...

so naka-bingo ako nung gabing un...from elem to college(kumpleto!) pero sa tatlo, dun sa pangatlo ako pinaka-affected. ewan ko ba...last time na nakita ko sya sa my RP. tanong ko kung san sya pasok, tas sabi nya di daw sya ng-college. *sigh* public school lng kasi ako nung hs...dun ko sya nakilala. tas after college, ala na..kanya-kanya na. napapaisip tuloy ako...nghihinayang sa tuition ko...tri-sem un...tig-30 per sem...ang dami ng mapaaral nun! tas eto ako...simple lng...alang narating ung pera ng nanay at tatay ko. *sigh* babaw ba? ewan ko nga kung bakit ako affected e...once ko lng nmn naging classmate un. nasasayangan lng ako sa kanya...

hay...

nakuha kaya nung friend ko ung scholarship?...hope so

ok lng...

2004-07-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

sige, wag kang magreply...ok lng

sige, wag mo kong sabihan...ok lng talga

...nghhntay na nmn ako sa wala

e bakt ba kasi ngparamdam ka tapos ---- ?!

bkt kagabi sabi mo ---, tas ikaw din pala. tsk tsk tsk

maniniwala pa ba ako? *sigh*

sigh

2004-07-02T08:22:00.000+08:00

pathetic ako...to ever think na boring ang life ng walang boylet. why did i ever say those words?!!! (remembers friend's reaction last night...tsk tsk tsk) for awhile un lng talaga ang nasa utak ko. i know it's not healthy pero may magagawa ba ko kung LOSER talga ako? (nyak, mgdrama ba daw?) di nmn successful ang aking career, ndi rin active ang aking social life (mga ka-berks kasi ay iba ang trip)...so i thought, kung aayos 'tong lovelife ko e okei na. magiging ok nga ba? will i be contented...HAPPY?mali e...maling-mali! i should find other things to do pra nmn maging productive buhay ko. ano kaya? aral ulit? (sawa na ko!!) e kung mg-cooking lessons o kaya swimming? gym? dance lessons? basta ANYTHING para mapunan 'tong emptiness na napi-feel ko....anything na makakapg-add ng SENSE sa lecheng buhay kong 'to. (di mejo obvious na bored ako sa life ko noh?) grabe, i just want to know kung ano bang purpose ko sa mundong 'to. tipong nilu-look forward ko ung pggising tuwing umaga kasi alam ko my magagawa akong matino, mabuti...para sa iba...para na rin sa sarili ko...o kahit para man lng jan sa aleng/mamang nakatabi ko sa fx o nakasabay pgtawid *sigh*

letting go...

2004-06-23T17:53:00.000+08:00

ewan ko ba kung nakakatulong na mula ng sinimulan ko 'tong blog ko e halos sya na lng ang laman. o dba...ang gandang reminder? pra na tuloy meron syang sariling webpage e...na mejo may pagka-stalker ang dating. (hehehe umamin na stalker Ü)
*sigh*
pero ok din nmn 'to e...at least may outlet ako para sa feelings ko. (pucha nmn, sa tagal na nun e dapat matagal ng natuyot feelings ko for him!!! pero ala e, every now and then ba nmn mgparamdam e....tsk tsk tsk!) ewan, siguro partly umaasa narin ako na by doing this e slowly makakapg-let go ako. ay mali, i think ngaun e mas umaasa ako na mapagod sa mga kagagahang ginagawa ko...sa pgintay...

dahil ako ay pakelamera.....

2004-06-23T17:22:00.000+08:00

may mga nalalaman akong mga bagay-bagay......kanina kasi nghahanap ako ng 4.50 barya para pambayad sa tricycle palabas. punta ako k nanay...ala. punta ako k utol1...nagalit, aga-aga daw e nggigising ako. utol2 is naliligo...punta sa kanyang bag...kuha wallet. teka...sino 'to?!! kala ko ba si - ?!! kala ko ba lalake sya? ewan ko ha...hndi nmn sa masamang mgkaron k ng pic ng bestfriend mo daba?....pero para i-display?!!! bkt ndi pic ko? kapatid nya ko noh! mas close nmn kami siguro!!!! exag ba? ok lng nmn e....kaya lng ngtataka talga ako coz sa mga txt, letters...he/she constantly says the word 'boyfriend'...so i assumed na --. (sobrang nao-obvious ba na SOBRANG PAKELAREMA ko?)pero well, ano nga bang PAKELAM ko? weno ngaun kung gurl nga?!! sabi ko nga tahimik na ko e....
ba't ba kasi pinakelaman ko wallet nya?!!!!

bkt nga ba ala pa ko bf?

2004-06-22T15:38:00.000+08:00

tinanong nya ko bkt ala ko bf...
sabi ko 'kasi ala pang matinong ngtatangka'
di ko makuhang masabing...'alang ngtatangka AT ALL'
pathetic noh? LOSER!

sad ako...

.....

2004-06-22T09:59:00.000+08:00

oo nga...tama ka, nglolokohan lng kami

eX...

2004-06-19T18:07:00.000+08:00

name one of your ex?
- let's skip this one...okesh?
Why did you break up?
- natakot sya sa nanay ko?
Who called it quits?
- sya
What would be your break up song for him/her?
- unfoolish
Of all your ex's, who did you lyk the most?
- ung first (first love never dies ba ang drama?)
Do you regret what happened?
- nope....made me what i am now (bitter?....ay mali, stronger pala wehehe)
If there would be a chance that you will be together again, would you still say yes?
- oo ata?
Are you still hoping that he/she will come back?
- honestly, minsan oo...
Do you think he/she hates you?
- ung isa hndi...ung isa 'di ako sure, tampo siguro
Do you think he/she had move on?
- oo naman
What did you do after the relationship ended?
- e 'di ngumawa't umatungal (parang hindi tao noh?)
Do you hate him/her?
- nope....ndi nmn ganun ka grabe (bitter...?)
Do you still communicate?
- yup....every now and then ngpaparamdam sya
What would you tell him/her if you'll see him/her?
- na-miss ko sya
Do you ever regret loving her/him?
- nope
Does she/he make you cry when you're still together?
- hmmmmm....paminsan
What was the most unforgettable WORDS/STATEMENT he/she told you?
- nyak...e di ung kanyang whispered 'i love you' (naks!)
If youre gonna die tomorrow, what will you say to your ex?
- i still love you? wehehehe hinde...cguro ummm....'bilisan mo, iintayin kita' nyahahaha....mas malufet ba un? i honestly don't know...cguro ki-kiss ko na lng sya sa noo

almost happy.....

2004-06-18T18:13:00.000+08:00

If I could look beyond your face
And photograph your hidden place
Would I find you smiling in the picture
And I don't know what you want
'Coz you don't know,
So what's the point of asking
You're almost happy
Almost content
But your head hurts
Far too many ways to go
We learned so much but never know
Where to look
Or when we should stop looking
And I can love the whole of you
The poetry I stole from you
And hide inside my stomach
You're almost happy
Almost content
But your head hurts
It's easy to get lost in you
And fall asleep inside of you
I want to return to you
A reason to be here
A reason to be here
No, I don't know what you want
'Coz you don't know
So what's the point of asking
And you're almost happy
Almost content
But your head hurts

~ K's CHOICE